For he was the one who mildewed by my actions..
He needed my love and aid..
That was till he was juvenile..
With my growing age i forgot he faced the same..
Wasn’t i a good parent that he chose to gyp me..
Tired to make him virtuous..but he trampled me..
The words fell on deaf ears..and i realized that late..
Never awaited the worst moment of being a parent..
But when the crowd says you pilfered..
An ache surmounts my inner soul..
What did i not provide you in my lifetime..
From day of realization of my parentage i have been striving..
To make you earn your dream..
But still you chose the thrill of larceny..
Nobody caught you..but the world sees..
You deeds left me shamefaced..
Oh lad i had expectations..
Did i never satisfy all your expectancy?
Is this because my lineage was wrong..
Or is that you..The bizarre soul…
My words will fade soon..
I have only hours to breathe..
I cherish the moments because I will die in the arms of my love..
I want the world to know the love story..
To teach the folk that love never dies..
I take you few years back..
To the era I ruled the screen..
When acting was my passion..I was the victor..
He came as an associate..and all I wanted is to fumble..
It seemed all the love stories I have read becoming true..
We fell for each other..and i just felt so special..
His career was inferior..still i let myself go..
With him the world seemed dainty..
Nothing lasted in thoughts but me n him..
When the family objected..i absconded..
That was a great feeling..i was with him..
Wedding at the shrine..everything went typical..
I was a wife then..didn’t that sound sweet??
We bought ourself an abode..
Like the one in my dreams..by the lake..
The days were blissful..with equal focus on our career..
We still were lovers..and it seemed eternal..
Then one day I was on cloud nine..
From wife..i was going to get a new title..
I could feel the symbol of our love within me..
The moment we cherished..
It was a moment to thank the omnipotent..
The check ups had been done..
His love seemed to fade..i thought he was unhappy..
He took me for the round of check up..
But I never knew why the hell was he being so formal..
The next day my happiness turned to swollen eyes..
The man I loved killed my babe even before I could touch it..
He left a lesion..
All I could manage was going away..I did not leave a note..
I could see the progress in his career through the daily..
He showed no signs of lament..
God!How could I love someone like him..
It was not the time to weep..i wanted to retaliate..
Stepping back to my profession was not a tough task..
We again shared the screen..but never had the old chemistry..
Wow.!Thats all I could say when he said he was married..
But didn’t that hurt me?
A fine morning I woke with an aching stomach..
When I couldn’t take the pain..i needed a cure..
How can deity be so atrocious..the cells grew too fast inside me..
It was then the doctor managed to reveal that..
Should I take it as a blessing I still don’t know..
The child was killed to extend my years on earth..
Was it a curse that if the child had been born..i might have gone..else we both..
I just sat with a blend of emotions..
I was not too brave to face the world..
Like the last time I did go..
But this time I left a note..I had to tell him I knew the truth..
For years I stayed at a chums place..
When I couldn’t take the pain longer I moved..
The curse changed my physique..
Years in the clinic..lying in the same bed I did nothing but think of the past..
Expecting the worst to happen at any moment..
It was just a few days back that I received a call..
Didn’t hear a word except the soft breaths..
I knew very well the one who owned that..
It was a moment I cherished..
It was him..my lost love..
How could I say no when he wanted to come back..
But how could I for the malady had changed my frame..
I had to be rude..I managed to keep the receiver..
Luckily he did not hear my sob..
Verily said love never dies..
The day I woke to find him beside my bed..
My countdown had begun..
He wanted to take me with him..and i did not object..
He took me to the same old home..where our journey had begun..
Still the place looked the same..
We spent hours seated at the shore..
When I felt pale we shifted inside..
The epoch would soon come to an end..
I am the old lover..n he is the same man i loved..
When I write this tale he’s asleep beside me..
I don’t know if I will witness another morning..
This is for my love to know that you had always been so special..
What you did for me was the best for me..
Love never dies but lovers have to..
I want you to move on..
The life has tried lots of mischief in me..
But I never lose for my love is always with me..
You seldom came to my memories,
But it was last night when grandmas words brought you back,
For some reasons our eyes wetted..for you were so dear..
You completed our family,filled our hearts,
But before we knew you better,you were gone..
As the youngest lassie in the family you brought the smiles..
Your cries filled the room..your smile made us happy..
A new angel was the result of our benediction..
We searched through pages selecting a name for you..
But none seemed perfect,for you were so special..
You were the one we all loved to adore..
The weeny in the family..now we miss you dear..
Years have passed..you are still in our minds..
Why did you have to go..
Sometimes god turns savage..
Why did almighty have to grab the reason for our bliss..
Life makes us happy at times..
But why does grief always accompany??
People call it fate..for us its a loss..
I miss you our angel..
However far you may go..
Your smiles and innocence will never fade from our hearts..
We loved you…and will always do..till our horizons meet..
I feel proud when someone cares for my feeling..
Being vindicated from a cluster of sorrows means a lot..
I have you in my life..to steer my way..
You don’t like to see me sad..it makes me happy..
For you i shall smile all the phases in my life..
You dried my tears..I am relieved now..
For now you know what runs through my mind..
You hold me close when the world jostles me..
I am secure when you clasp..
The feeling that you are away does hurt me..
But day by day i await being with you..
You are with me in happiness and sorrows..
I still miss you..but i know you are always mine..
So however far you are..
You are always in my mind..
Never change yourself for i love the way you are..
You give me courage to move ahead..
Never let me go..i fear being hoodwinked..
I never knew what i had been thinking the previous night,
Until i foreshadowed i was getting late..
I had been missing them again another night..
Because the hostel life bores me a lot..
The pillows stay soggy..for i had been weeping for them,
Mom n dad..I know you toil without me..
U miss me as much as i do..
I cant abide the egoistic minds..
I know i have a long way to go..
I am here to rear my future..
But without you the world seems humdrum..
Your solicitude for me is always the same..
Be near or far you are always in my heart..
You are my world..You are everything to me..
And i await your arrival..
I miss you tonnes…!
I visited an arbor..but it wasn’t for me..
The shade it provided was valuable..
It was for those who are not safeguarded..
It depicted a havel..but treated well..
They are lackey which was good..
They have a lifestyle..
Away from the society..they build their bijou..
The kids are gem..they have their flair..
They need an assist..i want to be their support..
I want the mass to join me..to understand their world..
They need affection..it costs nothing..
Give them some care..for they are in destitution..
If you do it today..your comrades will follow you..
Be a lesson to others..one day you will purport on life..
That day you will be the happiest..
Because you heeded something precious..
After all the tussles..the day arrived..
But it turned to be something notable..
Only grin on the faces but gratified by the memories..
We made the day..it was the Freshers Day..
With all the gallant efforts we drafted the event..
Lots of embellishing with some games..
We made our way to the hearts of freshers..
Our essays proved right..we are now joyous..
I admit we had a strife..but at last we were all identic..
Our notion was lucid..and now we have triumph..
I hope the delight never fades..
Let the college life be cherished..